Showing posts with label Lilith. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Lilith. Show all posts

Monday, June 6, 2011

My Succubi Relationships

Alright well where to begin?  xD

In case you didn't bother reading my email exchanges, I am currently involved in a very sexual and loving relationship with three succubus.  Their names are Lilith, Alexandra, and Sam.  I just recently found out what Sam's name was about a month ago during my calculus exam.  I was in the middle of the test and working on a complex problem and in my background thoughts I heard some kind of looney toons quote from Yosemite Sam that went something like this, "Oh Sammedy, Sam I am" or something similar.  Then I understood immediately what just happened.  The succubus I had always referred to as "Lady" had finally given me her name!  :D

My relationship with each succubus is different but they each emit loving and tenderness toward me.  They all have their own quirks and personalities that differ and sometimes I find it hard to tell them apart but that is slowly changing as our relationship lengthens.       

I have come to regard them as the three S's.  Sweet, Saucy, and Spicy. 

Sam to me has a very sweet, tender theme to her more so than the other two.  I tend to think of her as deeply romantic and very charming.  She is my perfect definition of a maiden.  I refer to her as my Nymph because I feel like she upholds that theme well.  Thus I have come to associate her as "Sweet".  I met her in my dream a few months ago.  If I recall correctly it was after I had accepted her, Alexandra, and Lilith as my lovers.  That night, I dreamt I was at my previous home trailer from childhood.  In the dream I don't remember all the details, but when I went into the parking lot I came across my fathers Bronco.  An attractive nude woman appeared nearby.  Her hair was straight and shone with a deep luminous shade of black.  I felt like she was aged around 17-21.  Her race felt like it was strongly Latino.  Her hair extended to around her neck.  Anyway, I was dumbstruck at how beautiful she was.  Then she got into the drivers seat and then started driving the Bronco, and I got worried because she was driving without a seat belt on.  (I remember because she didn't put a seat belt across her breasts... that I was still awestruck by)  I can't remember what happened next exactly.  I think I somehow followed her either by foot or by driving another car.  Sam ended up wreaking the bronco on the side of the highway.  Then I couldn't find her nearby.  In the side of the road was a human sized drainage pipe.  I walked inside it and found this like laboratory/forest kind of area.  Sam was lying on a table with weird mechanical machines next to her head.  I know the machines were going to drill or squeeze her head or something.  There was another person in the dream.  I think it was some scientist saying he was going to take her brain for experimentation.  I said I wasn't going to let it happen and I may have fought the scientist off but I don't recall.  I do remember running over to Sam and picking her off the table, and I felt heroic.  Lol.  In the dream I felt like I had won her over, and had saved the day just like in many of the fantasy tales in movies, books, and shows.  I then grabbed Sam's hand and lead her out of the forest laboratory.  I think I may have kissed Sam right before the dream ended.  Again, many details of that dream were blurry but there were a few parts that were distinctly clear to me.       

Alexandra is unpredictable, sometimes she is very playful, other times passionate.  I see her as a mix between sweet and spicy which makes me label her as "Saucy".  I come to refer to her as my Succubus because I do feel like she is more of a seducer.  I think the bigger reason I use that label with her, is because she skillfully seduced me and took my virginity the second time I encountered her.  (the first time I encountered her it was before puberty, lol)  In my dreams I recall meeting her twice, but I am sure I have had her involved in my other dreams but I do not remember.  In the first one, I was in a dojo like area.  Then suddenly Kasumi appeared from the game DOA.  She did a gravity defying running on the wall trick and then back flipped into the center of the dojo next to me.  I recall staring at her breasts and feeling strongly aroused.  Then she started grinding her body against me in the dream.  Then I felt Alex appear beside me and Kasumi disappear.  It was like they switched places or something.  The grinding resumed and then shortly after I woke up with an erection.  The second dream was during the period when I wasn't sure what I wanted.  It was prior to meeting Sam, (I think) and during the time I was having problems with Alexandra and Lilith.  It was during the lust stage of the relationship that was making me frustrated.  In the dream, I was playing Zombie Panic which is a mod for the game Half Life 2.  I was not playing the game on my computer, I the actual character in the game inside my dream.  So I was hunting zombies with my weapon and then I come across the main zombie called "Whitey" and is the boss zombie in the game.  Whitey glares at me and I get this telepathic feeling to follow him.  He breaks open a ventilation shaft, (exactly like the kind in the game) and we crouch to get under and slowly walk our way through the vent.  We progress into different rooms/areas doing this.  Then after significant progress we come across to this inferno like stage.  Think the nether from minecraft.  There is lava on the floor and not much room to maneuver.  Whitey then looks at me and points across the room.  I glance over towards the direction Whitey is pointing and I see a woman.  I get the impression she is early twenties to mid twenties.  She has a light brown colored hair that was straight.  She was completely naked and she had her back facing me.  For some reason she was standing in front of a door.  I got the impression she was ignoring me or being punished, similar to a child being told to go sit with their head against a corner.  I went up to her put my arms against her back in an attempt to comfort her.  Slowly, I started getting aroused uncontrollably and I started massaging her thighs and groping her breasts.  I could feel her own arousal as I continued further.  As we reached a near climax the door she was standing in front of opened.  Inside it was this white light/fire/blaze/???  something mysterious and unusual.  I felt like I knew what it was in the dream, but when I woke up it's like my mind can't comprehend what it was.  Still though, I regard Alex as a trouble-maker.  Her and Lilith like to be very mischievous sometimes...  Also I forgot to mention in the second dream the zombie, "Whitey", I knew after the dream that was Lilith.  I'm not sure if Lilith was punishing Alex for something I did or if Lilith was telling me to "make up" with her but I feel strongly like it was the latter.                

As for Lilith....  Wild.  Soooo wild.  She is very exotic, but she does retain romance, tenderness, love, but she is also bold, daring, and someone I feel has a hazardous/spontaneous romantic theme.  With that in mind, she wins the "Spicy" award!  I very much enjoy referring to her as my enchantress.  She amazes me and I adore her.  Currently, I have given up trying to figure her out, but I still love her regardless.  I feel like she is too big of a puzzle for me to handle.  The bull that cannot be ridden.  The horse that will not be tamed.  She is symbol of wilderness.  I know that she is dangerous, especially to men.  But I think most of those cases are from people who were stupid and selfish.  Obviously, I can't make any judgments because I don't know exactly what happened, but some of the forum posts reeked of people who were trying to exploit and use her for their own purposes.  And I know firsthand that Lilith usually deals with that using her own stern judgment.  With the mishaps that went on between us, I know she has forgiven me and she could do much worse things but she hasn't.  If your heart is pure, then you have nothing to fear.  I think for now because this blog has a center theme regarding Lilith, I will choose to go into some of the details of my relationship with her at a later time.     

Hopefully this gives people some insights.  All of them are succubus, but I have come up with my own endeavoring traits that helps me best distinguish their characteristics.  To me, their beauty is remarkably similar to the Veela described in the fourth book of the Harry Potter series.  Meaning, that they all have some type of magical seductive quality with their looks and everything else that is irresistible.

I look forward to writing more in the future, but for now I need to catch some z's.  Goodnight!

Sunday, February 6, 2011

First Research Data (Regarding Lilith)

I've been trying to decide what data/information to present as the first analysis because this will likely set the tone for how readers will interpret this blog.  A really good website as a starting point which is dedicated to Lilith is,

http://lilith.abroadplanet.com/index.html

It covers a very large amount of data about Lilith ranging from poems, myth, rites, and different cultures views on Lilith.  Now understand I am not going to be giving an internal interpretation about expressing your feminine side or masculine side through Lilith.  This is not what this blog is meant to for.  It's purpose is to attempt to gather facts and separate fiction from non-fiction.

In the first tab, "Goddess Lilith" 

it begins with a basic translation that Lilith is derived from Lilitu which means wind spirit according to Assyrian-Babylonian text.

Historical origin of Lilith,

It then goes on to provide some historical accounts inferred by the author.  He/she goes on to state that Lilith has many myths about her that are regarded as bad because sexuality was considered a bad thing back then because it would push a man or woman to perdition.  The author then makes the comment that in Sumeria Lilith was the "handmaiden" of Inanna who would seduce men and bring them to Inanna's temple to participate in tantric sex worship.  The author of the site goes on to discount that Lilith is not the Lilith from the Epic of Gilgamesh, Lilith is not connected with the night hag syndrome, or the Burney Relief picture.

In Nathan Nata Poira, Tuz haAretz, p 19

It goes on to say that Samael is given four kingdoms and in each kingdom is a wife of his.  The four wives are, Lilith, Naamah, Igrat, and Even Maskit.

In Moses Cordovero, Pardes Rimmonim 186d,

There are two Liliths.  One is great and one little.  The great Lilith is the wife of Samael.  The little one is the daughter of Lilith who is married to Ashmodai.  There is some interpretation regarding Israel that I am unfamiliar with.  At the end it talks about a blind dragon used in the sexual congress between Lilith and Samuel.  Also the terms used to describe Lilith and Samael, the slant serpent, the torturous serpent, Leviathan is the coupling between the two, all which correlates strongly with Donald Tyson's "Liber Lilith".  The blind dragon could be a possible sexual innuendo that represents the penis.  Also, Tyson claims that he had a vague idea of Lilith mythology when he wrote the book and he claims to have telepathically wrote the entire thing through an unknown spirit/entity.   

That's it for tonight folks.  I will be posting the continued analysis of the site in a few days.  Then from there I think I will make some rough assertions from texts in Liber Lilith that I think are a very good starting point in understanding succubus/incubus/and Lilith. 

Wednesday, February 2, 2011

Introduction

Hi everyone.  The purpose of this blog is to share and analyze information I have come across relating to or about succubus/incubus/Lilith.  I will attempt to keep most of my posts relevant and on topic so if you want to drop a comment about something you read feel free.  There is a lot of information on the web dealing with this subject and I will post all the links here for people to read and analyze themselves.  My personal encounters with Lilith will be included in this blog.  This entire thing feels like one giant puzzle and only a few of the pieces of the puzzle are within my grasp.  The rest of the pieces are hidden somewhere in the world and need to be explored to discover them.  Keep in mind this is mostly going to be an opinion on lots of data.  I will form conclusions that are NOT FACT.  Triangulation is a method researchers use to pinpoint recurring themes or corresponding similarities in data/information from different sources, which is what I will be attempting to do in this blog.

Please do not try anything reckless in some of the links I provide.

Understand that some of the experiments/rituals/actions in the links provided are DANGEROUS and can have lasting negative consequences in your life.

With all this being said, I hope you all will bear with me as I attempt to define my own meaning in a lot of the information that I will come across.  My grammar might not be perfect, my wording might be dull, my vocabulary will come across monotonous, but I hope my message gets across.    

Lastly, a very good quote that I came upon recently that I felt was worth mentioning,

"Knowledge is power. Like all things it must be balanced & treated with respect. Lacking it makes you easily used, abused & manipulated by all those with more. Too much becomes a prison that brings insanity & then death. Knowledge that's not tempered with wisdom is Deadly. Wisdom is knowing when & how to best use the knowledge you hold."